Elizabeth’s Blog

Finding Peace…

I woke up this morning feeling anxious. That feeling that’s eventually fleeting for most, but not me. I wake up anxious every day, taking quick mental inventory of my life and my surroundings. For a moment I note that everything is fine, everyone is where they are supposed to be. We are all here, safe…

Signs and The Maple Tree

We’ve been without power for 3 days. The snow was expected, but the ice storm that followed was not. As inconvenient as it is for everyone, I kind of like it. I am enjoying the downtime of the days, the familiar chaos of the neighbor kids and parents at home, playing in the snow, and…

Her Blanket

The only good thing about coming home from the lake is opening my bag of clothes to the sweet smell of campfire.  Up there, I don’t notice the scent on my clothes, but here, it’s so out of place and it radiates from everything I own.  The sweet smoky scent of burning wood has always been my…

Energy of the lake

I’m wearing my pajamas with snow boots and I pull on my grey wool sweater so I can go out to get the firewood.  There is a light breeze in the air and the lake is vigorously alive.  The trees have lost all their snow this morning, but it’s still cold enough for a fire (in my…

A Glimmer of Peace

In preparation to leave home for Christmas at the lake, I think I’ve experienced my first feelings of joy and a glimmer of peace. The process has been cathartic by allowing me to do things I know how to do and need to be done. In the last 48-hours, I’ve been busy mailing Christmas cards,…

Paralyzed in Pain

It’s been 8-weeks… I’ve wanted to write and share with you, but I’m not sure what to say. My words are insignificant in comparison to the magnitude of emotions I feel and sorting through them is nearly impossible. As each day unfolds, I become more aware of her absence and my grief continues to grow. The…

Our Mountain

Good morning P, It’s the 2nd day of December and 5 ½ weeks since you earned your Angel Wings.  I’m not convinced that earning your Angel Wings is the way I want to say that yet, but saying since you “passed” does not do it justice.  Saying, “since we lost you,” doesn’t work for me because you…

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is (was) Peyton’s favorite holiday. She said it was her favorite holiday because she loved to eat!  She loved the turkey and mashed potatoes and liked eating in the dining room. She liked the Christmas music and having everybody around.  We weren’t feeling very celebratory this year, but it felt important that we do it for her,…

Sharing My Writings

It has been a long and difficult year.  So many of you have risen to the occasion and supported us in ways we didn’t know we needed supporting.  You have written, mailed cards, brought food, sent flowers, helped us with chores, care of Ryan and offered so much friendship and kindness.  Your kindness came in all shapes and…

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